Demiurge of a thaumaturge – the secret of “I am”

I am a shitty person. If I’m not mindful about my words and actions, I tend to just fuck shit up around me… I thought for the longest time that “everyone else is too sensitive” but have come to realise that maybe I’m too brusque. I need to reserve parts of myself for certain spheres. … Continue reading Demiurge of a thaumaturge – the secret of “I am”

No one gives a shit about your opinions

Knock, knock, gnocchi on Enoch's door. Who is it? Oh shit, it's John Knee. I'm kicking down the door even though I have a key! It's really for dramatic effect. I totally just unlocked the door. Or picked at the lock. Or did something. I dunno. It's all just make believe, made real because of … Continue reading No one gives a shit about your opinions

My real deepest darkest wish: achieve godhood.

I wish I was a god. That way I could do whatever I wanted. Like god in Dogma. The Alanis Morrissette version of god. Oh boy, I have so many thoughts on god, and have written a ton of posts and pages on the matter. The memory of this post comes to the forefront of … Continue reading My real deepest darkest wish: achieve godhood.

(k)imagine my 23 enigma

A whole new world, thats where I'll be. A thrilling change, a psychotic break, from you to me. I hear songs in my head, but not really. And i wonder why it matters at all that I continue here, pretending I have a purpose that serves anyone or thing besides that which serves myself. https://youtu.be/XD1cxSE25ckContinue reading (k)imagine my 23 enigma

A summons to reveal 1 of my trinity

I am a lazy mother hugger and cosplay is something I have only ever low key participated in. Mere homages to ideations, characters and features I desired to pay small tribute to. They were all just mere token displays that only meant something to me, but here before you I reveal my truth. Zatanna Zatara … Continue reading A summons to reveal 1 of my trinity

Brian come back with the krakrn

Because im a scared little chicken (rooster, #cok, my minute pillar, i sang a tune as the sun was rising and shit... peter felt guilty about his... reputation..? Or was it his conscience...? I dont remember) (Can i just cock up this song and save us both the embarassment of my long winded introductions?) While … Continue reading Brian come back with the krakrn

I’m chaos on fire, stolen breath

burning the cross with Chaos on it, on fire, the discord a hysterical farce. and I am reminded that's why I am brought in. Not to be a wise sage or respectable teacher, but to be the the foil I always was, I am the comic relief. This does not quell my soul at the … Continue reading I’m chaos on fire, stolen breath

The thankless thank the faceless

Hey big spender, hey gold finger, here come the m.i.b, they won't let you remember Spend a little time with me-i-beWho's hot whose not you best think back, mind in the job, you need a new godShave the carpenters pencil, draw your designers intention, seneschalThe minute you walked in the joint, I could see you … Continue reading The thankless thank the faceless

The secret to chaos magick #5.

The apple of discord was set to collide with the world. Eris sacrificed her most prized possession to help raise the earth's vibration. Oh the things she would do if she were queen, and not Aymyh. Yhwh know, Lohwhy. Eris said I was still the prettiest. But out of the love of her heart (I'm … Continue reading The secret to chaos magick #5.